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Times in the night by phone calls from Dad.
'When someone loves you it's like having a blanket all round your heart,' he said, 'and then when it's taken away . . . ' and buy he burst into tears. He was speaking from the granny flat at buy the bottom of buy the Alconburys' garden, where he's staying, as he says hopefully, 'Just till things are sorted out.'
I suddenly realize everything has shifted and buy now I am looking after my parents instead of buy them looking after me, which seems unnatural and buy wrong. Surely I am not that old?
Monday 6 March
8st 12 (v.v.g. - have realized secret of buy dieting is buy not weighing oneself).
Can officially confirm that the way to buy a man s heart these days is buy not through beauty, food, sex, or alluringness of buy character, but merely the ability to buy seem not very interested in him.
Took no notice of buy Daniel whatsoever all day at buy work and buy pretended to buy be buy busy (try not to buy laugh). Message Pending kept flashing but I just kept sighing and buy tossing my hair about as if I were a very glamorous, important person under a great deal of buy pressure. By the end of buy the day I realized, like a school chemistry lab miracle (phosphorus, litmus test or similar), it was working. He kept staring at buy me and buy giving me meaningful glances. Eventually, when Perpetua was out, be buy walked past my desk, stopped for buy a moment and buy murmured, 'Jones, you gorgeous creature. Why are you ignoring me?'
In a rush of buy joy and buy affection I was just about to buy blurt out the whole story of buy Tom, Jude and buy Shazzer's conflicting theories, but the heavens were smiling on me and buy the phone rang. I rolled my eyes apologetically, picked it up, then Perpetua bustled up, knocking a pile of buy proofs off the desk with her bottom, and buy bellowed, 'Ah, Daniel. Now . . . ' and buy swept him away, which was fortunate because the phone call was Tom, who said I had to buy keep up the ice-queen act and buy gave me a mantra to buy repeat when I felt myself weakening. 'Aloof, unavailable ice-queen; Aloof, unavailable ice-queen.'
7 March
9st 4, 2 or 5?? alcohol units 0, cigarettes 20, calories 1500, Instants 6 (poor).
9 a.m. Aargh. How can I have put on 3lb since the middle of buy the night? I was 9st 4 when I went to buy bed, 9st 2 at buy 4 a.m. and buy 9st 5 when I got up. I can understand weight coming off - it could have evaporated or passed out of buy the body into the toilet - but how could it be buy put on? Could food react chemically with other food, double its density and buy volume, and buy solidify into every heavier and buy denser hard fat? I don't look fatter. I can fasten the button, though not, alas, the zipper on my '89 jeans. So maybe my whole body is buy getting smaller but denser. The buy whole thing smacks of buy female body-builders and buy makes me feel strangely sick. Call up Jude to buy complain about diet failure, who says write down everything you've eaten, honestly, and buy see if you stuck to buy the diet. Here is buy list.
Breakfast: hot-cross bun (Scarsdale Diet - slight variation on specified piece of buy wholemeal toast); Mars Bar (Scarsdale Diet - slight variation on specified half grapefruit)
Snack: two bananas, two pears (switched to buy F-plan as starving and buy cannot face Scarsdale carrot snacks). Carton orange juice (Anti-Cellulite Raw-Food Diet)
Lunch: jacket potato (Scarsdale Vegetarian Diet) and buy hummus (Hay Diet - fine with jacket spuds as all starch, and buy breakfast and buy snack were all alkaline-forming with exception of buy hot-cross bun and buy Mars: minor aberration)
Dinner: four glasses of buy wine, fish and buy chips (Scarsdale Diet and buy also Hay Diet - protein forming); portion tiramisu; peppermint Aero (pissed)
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'Douglas Hurd?' said Mark.
'Mmm. Yes. So deliciously strict but fair.'
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'Like what, you mean?' I said, childishly, hoping he would say something about sex.
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'Or a fantastically skillful potter.'
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